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| Graduating Class of 2009 Scholarship essay question: “If you are going nowhere in your studies, what would you do?” i can't believe the essay question is such an emo one. but it makes for really good reflection for every single smu student, because im quite sure that everyone, at some point in their school life, would have felt lost and felt that they were going absolutely nowhere. or as the smu advert promises, going (so many) places that they felt scattered. ok foodie updates! 1. new casual dining eatery at city link mall called the souper family! soup+ choice of wrap,sandwich or salad + iced lemon or peach tea + cookie for $9.90! 
this is the minestrone one i had. rock hard bread but the caesar salad was really yummy (: 2. relatively healthier version of chicken rice - chicken porridge for $3.30! somewhere in bugis. 
3. wrap place at city hall. chicken mayo wrap is really good and superrr filling. $3.90. subway can go..take a train. 
oh no a bit blur. what i am going to do today: finish up scholarship essay, do up epiphany article, start doing christmas cards, maybe take a peek at fin math tb. budak pantai last night..was good (: but i felt a little let down cos quite a few of the songs were repeats. prefer the cosiness and the really up-close performance at blumoo the last time round. | | |
| Weak and wounded sinner, lost and left to die Oh raise your head for love is passing by Come to Jesus, come to Jesus, come to Jesus and live -- it struck me that unless i begin to make peace with myself..i cannot love. this depressing mood sucks. penang was quite fun. i enjoyed the fruit farm tour and of course, the food. i do thank God that there was no drastic weight gain from the one gazillion plates of char kway teow, lor bak, penang laksa, satay and hor fun. the amount of oil in there is rather terrifying. but i guess i was very disappointed to see them give up. to give up bonding us and bonding with us. what happened to the nightly card games we used to have. but i guess they're tired. ive gave up to protect myself and its really only human and natural that they have to. 
one of the many bowls of penang laksa 
yummy porridge in a half-hearted attempt to detox 
on the fruit farm -- Like a newborn baby, don’t be afraid to crawl And remember when you walk sometimes we fall So fall on Jesus, fall on Jesus, fall on Jesus and live and nobody walks in a straight line. there's no fixed hard and fast rule that putting one foot in front of the other repeatedly will guarantee that your road will be smooth. you cant say 'my muscles are doing their job. why am i not moving. why am i still falling'. in the same way, sakurai ann, you are not allowed to say that 'i am doing my homework. where is my a+'. -- really, life has no meaning if you're not living it for the Lord. i dont see how i can face tomorrow if i didnt know that i have eternal hope. how to cbt if theres nothing to write down. can you just..put me in a daze and..let me live my life in blurry confusion. with no emotions. being emotionless is the best emotion ever, ironically. because that means you dont care. i hate this part right here. i really do. i hate who i have become. no, i hate who i realize i actually am. | | |
| exams are over. thank God. yes, and the feeling of having papers over is definitely overrated - because with holidays, come projects and ccas. but the past few days have been thankfully relieved from exam stress (: lots of good food and great company! fri night fantastic mr fox with joyce was really good. a large carton of happy juice, pack of cheese jigs and carrefour sushi made for two happy junk-filled girls (: the mr fox character said something along the lines of "if i not so impressive that i intimidate..if i dont impress..if i dont outshine everybody else..im not happy. i need to be a fantastic mr fox..im a wild animal..we're all wild animals". while it is painful to admit that i do feel this way, the next step would be to get rid of this because, really, there's nothing to boast of except of Christ! sat chilli padi lunch with my aunt, 
yam cake and chwee kueh 
rojak 
penang laksa 
samosa, lontong veg, and the curry assam fish that i know daddy will ask me to take more of because fish is expensive and u need to eat ur money's worth during buffet 
desserts - yucky ondeh, dry fruitcake and super nice green thing that i dont know the name of so, a great afternoon with lots of shopping, awesome buffet lunch at chilli padi (north bridge road) and catching up with my aunt..followed by a food trail for dinner. gluttony! started off with the house of rice roll and porridge, then took a train down to tanjong pagar for... 
maxwell chicken rice! 
once upon a milkshake - choc truffle ice cream and strawberry ice cream. (: (now only scared get fat) then today was a typical holiday day - swim at noon, followed by rented dvd (dance subaru!), jade noodles for lunch (+astons fries!) then nap. then wake up, more jap drama serial then library. | | |
| a simple conversation revolving around gpa targets with a friend yesterday hit me harder than i thought it would. i know that it is not important because God has a perfect plan for me, even if i do get a 2.0 gpa or something. but i cant help judging myself based on that silly little number. drawing that painful conclusion that i'm an academic failure because i dont have a spot on that coveted deans list. oh and fyi, its not just about being on the list, its about being on that list more than once, and being valedictorian. i just hate the way this is making me feel. this morning..i woke up with the fgw2d feeling that i havent had since pir days. someone once told me that he wanted to overwork til the point of zero emotion. i can finally understand why anyone would want that..because these feelings really suck. what am i doing, really? withdrawing from the stressor? yes. i've had moments during this exam time period where..i went for dinner with my friends and completely forgot that there are still papers to be taken. and when those were over, everything just came back. Lord, You said You wouldnt test me beyond my limits..i'm sure You know this..but i'm at my limits okay? ok food time. 
shokudo spicy ramen soup 
ebi wanton that comes with the ramen soup 
imperial treasure zha jiang mian 
imperial treasure xiao long bao 
imperial treasure fried rice yes, i've been having too much good food | | |
| The Lord bless you and keep you; The Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you; The Lord turn His face toward you and give you peace Numbers 6:22-26 -- My Beloved is mine, and i am His and His banner over me is Love -- I've got peace like a river, I've got peace like a river, I've got peace like a river in my soul I've got love like an ocean, I've got love like an ocean, I've got love like an ocean in my soul -- 
Chocolat N Spice (Tanjong Pagar Plaza) - Blueberry Muffin 
House of Rice Roll and Porridge (Killiney Road) - Durian Cheong Fun 
House of Rice Roll and Porridge (Killiney Road) - Chicken Porridge 
House of Rice Roll and Porridge (Killiney Road) - Yu Sheng 
Fairprice Finest (Bukit Timah Plaza) - Exotic Pocky! (Apple Pretz, Almond Pocky and Apple Pocky) | | |
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